::::::::: Its My LifE :::::::::

today i walked in the office at 7:30.........really early, but work needed to be done as yesterday had left early because of a major headache, and at night had a small argument with jags......she is my goooood friend at pg.......though she thinks she can boss around all the time and does scold me, as though i am some kid........but i still like her, nice person. had decided will not speak to her for a week but ofcourse it is difficult for me to be angry on my friends.........jo pasand hain unhi se baat karna bandh kar denge to baath kisse karenga.

by the way life is a little relaxed right now as the work pressure is less because of the recent pujas......am able to go home early now-a-days.........is a good feeling, but on the whole have become very lazy of late........when was alone at the pg,before jags came back from guwahati....spent 1 complete week sitting at cafe coffee day for nearly 2 hrs daily, so much so that the ccd people have offered me a part-time job at their place.........and now that jags and the other girls are back, the evenings are spent in her room, and ofcourse she shouted at me last night, so was fuming in anger and sitting in my room listening to ear-blasting music all by myself.........

its bandh time again in kolkata............intricasies.......i dont know, the only thing is that i have a holiday for 2 days...........though monday is a working day, but i live in a politically active place and people have advised me not to venture out on that day.........so holiday it is :-))

of late all i have done is- dreamt........about endless things............ranging from A-Z.........and this is how it looks

Lonely......yeah, thats exactly what i feel every evening when i make my return journey to the pg (paying guest).........

so much so that i even volunteer to work on holidays......thats what the lonely syndrome has done to me.........i try to work late every evening, or even if the work gets finished early i loiter in the office or sit at the cafe coffee day.......near my place........and drink endless cups of coffee............
the pg is a lonely place, i dont get to watch any tv, my only indulgences are readying the newspaper, listening to radio.....or once in a while i go to the rooms of the other pg girls and sit around...........but that too is not good as the other girl in my friends room is not very comfortable with other people in her room.........so i make my visits really short and return to my room and just do..........god knows what.

it really hurts when i fall sick, i really miss mom at those times.....no one even bothers to ask, "how r u", even for the sake of it.........there have been endless times when i have sobbed myself to sleep.......well probably i am not mature enough, or old enough to absorb such issues...probably with time and experience i will be able to handle such issues better.

but then there is office, where i can work and forget everything.........just about everything in those 10hrs. everyday.
things have not been going on that well of late..........i had 2 accidents involving the cab, and both times i was just lucky to come out alive......close thats what it was, did leave me pretty bruised, but did not tell mom/dad cause they would have worried, bekar mein........

EXPECTATION...thats the root of all problems, I KNOW, but being human i still do the same mistake again and again.......i still crave for the emotional support, the bonding, the shoulder to cry on.......................HUMAN, guess thats what i am.

HSBC.....well thats where i am right now,and am sorry guys who have missed me for so long....but i was genuinely busy with this new job and new responsibilities.
working here has been fun...have met some really good people....both senoir colleagues and of friendly people to work with.
had gone to delhi for my induction-well was awesome, as was in delhi for the first time.........but did not get the opportunity to see more of delhi as was having a packed schedule...........but on the whole was a good experience, and also won a prize for best presentation...
will try to keep updating my blog once again.........hopeeeeessssss galore.